hello hello! how have you been? i apologize for being a bit quiet here as of late, but i’ve been debating a decision & finally feeling ready to share it with you!
as you might have already guessed from the title of this blog post, i’ll be going on an indefinite break starting end of september / beginning of october (the date isn’t hard set yet due to some pending projects) & i’m not sure for how long and what the break would actually look like. would i completely fall off the face of the internet world? would i still be poking around facebook / twitter / instagram / pinterest? i’m not sure & actually purposely want it to be the unknown and let my curiosities lead the way.
what i am sure of though is that the break is to allow for time to put into practice what i’ve been sharing — about slowing down & embracing each moment of each day, to have time to play & explore new ways of creating and/or to dive deeper into a creative process. to take time to breathe, take care of the body & spirit and to connect with the inner self.
being in my 30′s now, i’ve been thinking about life & how, if i’m lucky and able to live until 90, that means, 1/3 of my life has already unfolded. i ponder about the way that i am living right now, the way i see the world, the way i view my inner being, my consciousness, my purpose, my existence, is it connecting to my true spirit? not whether i’m happy/unhappy, but beyond external happenings, am i at peace within? to be honest, i don’t think i’m quite there yet.
learned felt the most since becoming sick is that change happens from within & that everything in life is a choice. no one is making you be a certain way, do a certain thing or perceive the world in a certain way. it is through your own consciousness (or unconsciousness) that life unfolds the way it does. if that is the case, then if i am wanting inner peace, the only way that i will ever even get close to it is to allow myself the space to try new things, to approach life from different angles and open my heart to the unknown.
i don’t know about you, but i’ve always needed a sense of direction, a goal, a motive and to have full control of each and every outcome. without it, i thought i would get lost & feared not knowing. i felt that by doing these things, it would bring me comfort, peace and clarity. in many ways, it actually produced the exact opposite outcome. i don’t regret anything thus far & if anything, thankful for all that has happened, but knowing what i know now, i am curious about whether living daily in the complete opposite way would garner a different way of existing in the world — one of being.
as i write this, my husband is next to me saying, “why are you writing “indefinite break”? it’s not an indefinite break. i know you, you’ll be doing something else if not this.” haha! i love his honesty. i definitely don’t plan on being on break forever & do plan on coming back. when & in what way? again, that is an unknown, but i do want to have the time to really put into practice what i know in my mind, but haven’t quite had the opportunity to experience in my everyday.
while away, i’ll be documenting sights / thoughts / curiosities / personal projects / etc. at curiosities & the unknown. if interested, please do come by & hang out!
but before going on break, there’s a workshop, a limited edition collaboration project & some other things here & there to tighten up so i’ll still be around. :)
i want to thank you so much for your understanding, support, love and just pure awesomeness while i continue on the next leg of my journey. i know many people say this, but i think my fans / customers / clients / friends are truly the best! truly.
with gratitude & love,
p.s. i’ll be back! no, really. i still have a bit before my break so i’ll see you here again until then! xx