hello hello! how have you been? i apologize for being a bit quiet here as of late, but i’ve been debating a decision & finally feeling ready to share it with you!

as you might have already guessed from the title of this blog post, i’ll be going on an indefinite break starting end of september / beginning of october (the date isn’t hard set yet due to some pending projects) & i’m not sure for how long and what the break would actually look like. would i completely fall off the face of the internet world? would i still be poking around facebook / twitter / instagram / pinterest? i’m not sure & actually purposely want it to be the unknown and let my curiosities lead the way.

what i am sure of though is that the break is to allow for time to put into practice what i’ve been sharing — about slowing down & embracing each moment of each day, to have time to play & explore new ways of creating and/or to dive deeper into a creative process. to take time to breathe, take care of the body & spirit and to connect with the inner self.

being in my 30′s now, i’ve been thinking about life & how, if i’m lucky and able to live until 90, that means, 1/3 of my life has already unfolded. i ponder about the way that i am living right now, the way i see the world, the way i view my inner being, my consciousness, my purpose, my existence, is it connecting to my true spirit? not whether i’m happy/unhappy, but beyond external happenings, am i at peace within? to be honest, i don’t think i’m quite there yet.

what i’ve learned felt the most since becoming sick is that change happens from within & that everything in life is a choice. no one is making you be a certain way, do a certain thing or perceive the world in a certain way. it is through your own consciousness (or unconsciousness) that life unfolds the way it does. if that is the case, then if i am wanting inner peace, the only way that i will ever even get close to it is to allow myself the space to try new things, to approach life from different angles and open my heart to the unknown.

i don’t know about you, but i’ve always needed a sense of direction, a goal, a motive and to have full control of each and every outcome. without it, i thought i would get lost & feared not knowing. i felt that by doing these things, it would bring me comfort, peace and clarity. in many ways, it actually produced the exact opposite outcome. i don’t regret anything thus far & if anything, thankful for all that has happened, but knowing what i know now, i am curious about whether living daily in the complete opposite way would garner a different way of existing in the world — one of being.

as i write this, my husband is next to me saying, “why are you writing “indefinite break”? it’s not an indefinite break. i know you, you’ll be doing something else if not this.” haha! i love his honesty. i definitely don’t plan on being on break forever & do plan on coming back. when & in what way? again, that is an unknown, but i do want to have the time to really put into practice what i know in my mind, but haven’t quite had the opportunity to experience in my everyday.

while away, i’ll be documenting sights / thoughts / curiosities / personal projects / etc. at curiosities & the unknown. if interested, please do come by & hang out!

but before going on break, there’s a workshop, a limited edition collaboration project & some other things here & there to tighten up so i’ll still be around. :)

i want to thank you so much for your understanding, support, love and just pure awesomeness while i continue on the next leg of my journey. i know many people say this, but i think my fans / customers / clients / friends are truly the best! truly.

with gratitude & love,

p.s. i’ll be back! no, really. i still have a bit before my break so i’ll see you here again until then! xx

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I have started to feel the same and I’ve felt that the amount of time social media requires nowadays is sometimes just too overwhelming. Please take your time, do the things that inspire your creativity and we’ll be waiting for your when you come back – no pressure though! :-) xx

by Maria on 08.17.13 at 2:32 pm. Reply #

thank you so much, maria. hope we can continue to stay in touch even during my break. :)

by satsuki shibuya on 08.26.13 at 1:07 pm. Reply #

Good luck Satsuki and I do hope you’ll stay around. I will miss your kind and gentle words everyday!

by mariella on 08.17.13 at 11:36 pm. Reply #

you are the sweetest, mariella! thank you so much. i hope i can come back & share with others the experiences from my break. xx

by satsuki shibuya on 08.26.13 at 1:08 pm. Reply #

Aww, all the best to you Satsuki and may you continue to explore life :)

by Island on 08.18.13 at 3:30 am. Reply #

thank you so much! <3

by satsuki shibuya on 08.26.13 at 1:08 pm. Reply #

Lovely post. I hope you find the space to rejuvenate and breath.

by Brett @ IAMTHELAB on 08.18.13 at 11:39 am. Reply #

thank you for the well wishes, brett. i do hope to explore & find what it is that i’m looking for. xx

by satsuki shibuya on 08.26.13 at 1:09 pm. Reply #

Wish you all the best Satsuki! I am a big fan of your blog, wise thoughts you tweet and of course your big talent. I will miss you, that’s for sure, but changes are needed to move forward. Warm hugs from Stockholm xx

by Asia on 08.19.13 at 1:43 am. Reply #

thank you so very very much, asia. your thoughts + words will come with me on my adventures. sending you warm hugs as well!

by satsuki shibuya on 08.26.13 at 1:10 pm. Reply #

I’m so glad you’ve decided to do this. These words struck such a chord with me that I’ve printed it out and put it on my desk. I have a feeling I’ll be re-reading it again and again.

I could go on for some time about all you’ve written, but I’ll leave it here. You’re inspiring me to turn inward and ask myself the same questions. Hope to see you soon. xo

by Jessica on 08.19.13 at 10:46 am. Reply #

so thankful for our afternoon tea when we were sharing some thoughts about this together. :) hope we’ll get to share more enlightening & wonderful conversations with one another soon. sending you hugs! xx

by satsuki shibuya on 08.26.13 at 1:13 pm. Reply #

i support you 110%. i wish you all the best during your break; everyone deserves one. may the road lead you to all things positive, loving, and full of spirit. <3

by kimmie on 08.19.13 at 4:30 pm. Reply #

thank you, kimmie for your support & understanding. i do agree too that everyone needs a break to rejuvenate, ponder, reassess & just be. i think as we grow older, we forget this basic necessity. hoping to come back & share what was discovered during the break. :)

by satsuki shibuya on 08.26.13 at 1:15 pm. Reply #

Dear Satsuki, it was lovely reading your blog and seeing what you had to share. Thank you so much for the wise words, I’ve always enjoyed reading them and they will be missed! Enjoy your break to the fullest and I wish you all the best! xox

by Mariam on 08.28.13 at 5:06 pm. Reply #

hello mariam! thank you so much for your message. i truly appreciate it. :) although there have been some thought changes since this post about the break (more to come soon), i am thankful for your support towards this decision. i hope you’ll continue to be a part of my journeys to come! xx. satsuki

by satsuki shibuya on 09.30.13 at 12:56 pm. Reply #

“Let the consciousness become still so we can recognise our true nature”.
Wishing you peace and joy.

by Lexie on 09.2.13 at 2:56 am. Reply #

thank you so much lexie. :)

by satsuki shibuya on 09.30.13 at 12:56 pm. Reply #

hi satuski! im not sure why my feedly reader was not updating your blog! i didn’t realize you were taking some time off. i wish you the best with whatever you choose to do. i am glad to have met such a talented and warm hearted person. :) thank you for being an inspiration.

by silvia on 09.16.13 at 7:42 pm. Reply #

aww…. you really are the sweetest. i wish we lived closer as then during my break, i could come visit you with some tea & hugs. :) thank you for the well wishes & support. xx

by satsuki shibuya on 09.30.13 at 12:59 pm. Reply #

Hi Satsuki. Reading about your break really strikes a chord with me, making me realise how desperate I am to retreat for a while. I hope your break brings about things you find interesting, and I hope I can germinate this seed of a break into something for myself too. x

by heather moore on 11.4.13 at 1:05 am. Reply #

its something about the 30′s :)
your words along with your work, always touch people in a meaningful way, even with your “absence” you’ll be thought of and still influencing us. — bon solitude. xo

by gina on 11.9.13 at 7:44 am. Reply #

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